I felt so fucke tup lately. Had some self reflection and self thoughts. I realise i have beedn drinking and practically almost weekend since march. And partying every weekend since 1 month ago.. i have been smoking too since last year end. Why am i doing all this ? to make myself feel better ? And the same issue came to my mind again and again... where is my friends ? who are those who really treat me as their friend ? or nowadays friends are jus a stepping stone ? I jus realise all my gfs went mia. They hardly ring me up unless they have something to ask me. I was thinking when is the last time i went out with them and stuff. I wonder will they even remember ? ppl jus think that pris is always so busy cfm no time to meet. Did they even bother to ring me up and ask ? ALL I CAN SAY IS.. MY FRENS ALWAYS ASK ME THIS QUESTION ' PRIS, WHY YOU MIA ? ' WHENEVER I RING THEM UP ? i did not mia i am all along here.. you all are the ones who mia from me. I did ring up my gfs jus that some didnt ans my call some dont even bother to reply me when they saw my miss call. YES, pris had alot of guys around her... i dont wan those guy i dun wan those ppl i jus wan my gfs back. Seriously i miss my friends alot... whatever it is i am so silly to cry over such thing. since u all always think tat i mia... i will mia...